Because I will often record 3-4 dreams from one night, and also write journal entries about message from the universe during the day, I have a lot of information to review and log. Dreams and winks from the universe start to blur together, and can get lost among the every day of cleaning, shopping, cooking, etc. Taking time out and reviewing my journals is exactly what I need sometimes to see the larger hand at play - and how it evolves over time. I usually pick a day every month or two in order to do this. But over the past week I've immersed myself in my journals and dreams. I've not only been to Panera three times for hours on end, but I've continued to review and log my dreams during my "down time" at home.
Tonight, after I finished my several hour session at Panera I walked next door to Whole Foods. Last week I bought a red wine called "Immersion" that I really liked and wanted to pick up another bottle. To my surprise it was on sale, at almost 1/2 off. I bought 4 bottles. I looked around the store, but there really wasn't anything else I needed to buy. So I went up to the cashier with my 4 bottles of Immersion. As this rather solemn cashier rang up the four bottles, I heard him say "Do you want to sleep at all....or anything else?" I thought he was joking making a statement about what drinking four bottles of wine would do, so I cracked a smile and said "I'm good". But I looked at him and he was not smiling. I wondered if I heard him correctly, but he had moved on asking if I wanted to donate my bag credit. I took the 4 bottles in my bag and walked to my car meanwhile pondering the question "Do you want to sleep at all?" and what a lot of 'Immersion" would do. Taking life symbolically, I considered what I've immersed myself in lately and how I would answer that question.
During the past week at Panera and home I've immersed myself in reviewing dreams from 2010 and the recent summer of 2013. During the 2010 entries my dreams and life entries show me "waking up" from several years of sleeping through life. During my summer 2013 entries I review Level 3 of Robert Moss' Dream Teacher Training. At the end of the training, before a wonderful group of dreamers, I summarized the past three years, the transformations that have occurred and now living my day and night life fully awake. Over the past week, I've immersed myself in reviewing these two time periods which has given me perspective on my own growth, development, transformation, and affirmed my "waking up" from a sleep that I do not plan to return to.
So, as I pondered "Do you want to sleep at all?" and what I have immersed myself in, I felt like I was being asked if I would prefer a former state of "sleep"; a time in my life when I was not only asleep to the power of dreams, but to life and the universe itself. My answer to this very serious question is, wholeheartedly, "No. I don't want to sleep in that way again. I would rather immerse myself in dreaming than sleeping any day or night." Thank you solemn cashier at Whole Foods for your question...and there is my answer.
I'd like to make one note to the universe, while my consciousness does not want to sleep, my body very much would like to answer "yes, she does need physical sleep!" So while my body enjoys this glass of Immersion and the physical sleep to come, I'll continue to immerse myself in the very awakend experiences of dreaming and life.